I feel like a hypocrite sharing Jin's news on FB. Especially when I wanted to type, the "you" in "So proud of you".

It just seem so awkward. The reason why I felt I was hypocritical is because I used to (repeat again, used to) not have a good impression about Jin (now I know what news and rumours can do to people). Now I kind of have begun to grow a somewhat better than neutral feeling towards him.

Still, the thing is, even though my opinion on him has changed for the better, I still feel like I can't qualify to address him as "you", even in FB LOL. I mean, I sure have no problem using that on Kame, surprisingly Nakamaru and Ueda too, but for the others... chotto... It just doesn't feel right because I feel I am not that involved in the others~

Anyway, talking about other group members, I really failed as KAT-TUN fan. *laughs* Recently there was this magazine with "Abrupt quizzes" on the current KAT-TUN, in which you have to guess who said/did what (e.g. pictures of their back view, then you have to guess who is who. Or having 5 answers to a question and you have to guess who said the answers.) I really messed up everyone's! Except Kame (as expected), though I still feel I have failed as a Kame fan because... out of the 6-7 quizzes.... I got... one wrong! )): Hahaha on the bright side, for all the other quizzes, at least I got one correct :D

Coming back to talk about Jin, I don't know how my judgment about him changed, it just did. Probably, formerly I was blinded by prejudice. I thought the current KAT-TUN (especially Kame) must have felt so-called "betrayed" for Jin to go solo. I mean, after all they knew about it through the news and not from him or the company itself? ): But again, now thinking about it, it must have been my own imagination forming up the closure hahahaha~ I am sure they may feel sad about it, but again as friends, they should understand why Jin did this. After all, it wasn't like they didn't know about Jin being kinda self-centered. I am sure love in any kind of relationships means accepting and embracing one's flaws. Jin felt so constrained being there, why not set him free? :D That's why, I am really glad he is doing fine with his solo. Plus, with the love as a fan, I accept him as he is (despite what he does in his personal life. Though not like I exactly know. It's just quite common knowledge to us fangirls.) and wish him all the best for his career :DD

Even for Kame, I know he is not flawless XD (even Jam!) Everyone has their flaws. For Kame, those anti-Kame fans would start to shoot "Kame is an attention seeker who is too serious and is extremely irritating" and stuffs. I agree Kame seemed to be really attention-seeking when he was younger, especially before he debuted. But seriously, isn't that the job of an artist to attract audience's attention? Plus, I don't find it wrong to have a little bit of 心机. Haha though I have to agree sometimes he seems like he is the only one talking all the time during interviews (which I totally don't mind hahahah), but at least he does try to bring in other people in time (such a rare strength)!

In the end I think I sounded like I am rebuffing/denying all the so-called flaws of him without stating any real flaws ._.

Anyway, a really personal opinion about Kame: I think, he has a really weak wall of confidence. To many people he may feel like he is really confident, but I felt he is girigiri (on the edge). I suspect that... he probably not has high self-esteem at first, that's why he has build a wall of ego in which he appears accidentally as attention-seeking. JUST MY ASSUMPTION ONLY HAHAHA. Don't know what's the point in this discovery, but oh well, Kame is still awesome! :D


Moving to KAT-TUN unrelated stuffs...


As I was saying, "love in any kind of relationships means accepting and embracing one's flaws". It's hard to do so, but really worth it in true relationships (friendship, love, family, any relationships). Like there are times when a friend would come to you to say, "Let's go to a movie!", knowing (or not) that you don't like movies (not referring to myself here). Kindaaaa insensitive uhhhh, but what to do? This is what your friend is. Either you stop being friends with him/her and be deprived of the fun time you can have together, or accept it. Different people have different ways of dealing and expressing things. One moment of insensitivity does not mean they love you less. And just because you are more sensitive to things, doesn't mean that people would have to follow set of standards and expectations.

(In the end that whole paragraph about sensitivity seems directed back to myself, because I am a Highly-Sensitive Person [HSP] lollll. Yup it is a psychological term. You may not understand, because only HSP would understand each other hahahha XD Even if you do understand, shhhh, HSP don't need privileges as HSP.)

It is really quite difficult to cope up with people who do things differently, but what are the chances you meet with people who things exactly the same way as you?

Haha I know it seems abrupt to end here, but I am ending here because I want to sleep ^^v Oyasuminasai~

Labels: Kamenashi Kazuya, KAT-TUN, Thoughts

I feel like a hypocrite sharing Jin's news on FB. Especially when I wanted to type, the "you" in "So proud of you".

It just seem so awkward. The reason why I felt I was hypocritical is because I used to (repeat again, used to) not have a good impression about Jin (now I know what news and rumours can do to people). Now I kind of have begun to grow a somewhat better than neutral feeling towards him.

Still, the thing is, even though my opinion on him has changed for the better, I still feel like I can't qualify to address him as "you", even in FB LOL. I mean, I sure have no problem using that on Kame, surprisingly Nakamaru and Ueda too, but for the others... chotto... It just doesn't feel right because I feel I am not that involved in the others~

Anyway, talking about other group members, I really failed as KAT-TUN fan. *laughs* Recently there was this magazine with "Abrupt quizzes" on the current KAT-TUN, in which you have to guess who said/did what (e.g. pictures of their back view, then you have to guess who is who. Or having 5 answers to a question and you have to guess who said the answers.) I really messed up everyone's! Except Kame (as expected), though I still feel I have failed as a Kame fan because... out of the 6-7 quizzes.... I got... one wrong! )): Hahaha on the bright side, for all the other quizzes, at least I got one correct :D

Coming back to talk about Jin, I don't know how my judgment about him changed, it just did. Probably, formerly I was blinded by prejudice. I thought the current KAT-TUN (especially Kame) must have felt so-called "betrayed" for Jin to go solo. I mean, after all they knew about it through the news and not from him or the company itself? ): But again, now thinking about it, it must have been my own imagination forming up the closure hahahaha~ I am sure they may feel sad about it, but again as friends, they should understand why Jin did this. After all, it wasn't like they didn't know about Jin being kinda self-centered. I am sure love in any kind of relationships means accepting and embracing one's flaws. Jin felt so constrained being there, why not set him free? :D That's why, I am really glad he is doing fine with his solo. Plus, with the love as a fan, I accept him as he is (despite what he does in his personal life. Though not like I exactly know. It's just quite common knowledge to us fangirls.) and wish him all the best for his career :DD

Even for Kame, I know he is not flawless XD (even Jam!) Everyone has their flaws. For Kame, those anti-Kame fans would start to shoot "Kame is an attention seeker who is too serious and is extremely irritating" and stuffs. I agree Kame seemed to be really attention-seeking when he was younger, especially before he debuted. But seriously, isn't that the job of an artist to attract audience's attention? Plus, I don't find it wrong to have a little bit of 心机. Haha though I have to agree sometimes he seems like he is the only one talking all the time during interviews (which I totally don't mind hahahah), but at least he does try to bring in other people in time (such a rare strength)!

In the end I think I sounded like I am rebuffing/denying all the so-called flaws of him without stating any real flaws ._.

Anyway, a really personal opinion about Kame: I think, he has a really weak wall of confidence. To many people he may feel like he is really confident, but I felt he is girigiri (on the edge). I suspect that... he probably not has high self-esteem at first, that's why he has build a wall of ego in which he appears accidentally as attention-seeking. JUST MY ASSUMPTION ONLY HAHAHA. Don't know what's the point in this discovery, but oh well, Kame is still awesome! :D


Moving to KAT-TUN unrelated stuffs...


As I was saying, "love in any kind of relationships means accepting and embracing one's flaws". It's hard to do so, but really worth it in true relationships (friendship, love, family, any relationships). Like there are times when a friend would come to you to say, "Let's go to a movie!", knowing (or not) that you don't like movies (not referring to myself here). Kindaaaa insensitive uhhhh, but what to do? This is what your friend is. Either you stop being friends with him/her and be deprived of the fun time you can have together, or accept it. Different people have different ways of dealing and expressing things. One moment of insensitivity does not mean they love you less. And just because you are more sensitive to things, doesn't mean that people would have to follow set of standards and expectations.

(In the end that whole paragraph about sensitivity seems directed back to myself, because I am a Highly-Sensitive Person [HSP] lollll. Yup it is a psychological term. You may not understand, because only HSP would understand each other hahahha XD Even if you do understand, shhhh, HSP don't need privileges as HSP.)

It is really quite difficult to cope up with people who do things differently, but what are the chances you meet with people who things exactly the same way as you?

Haha I know it seems abrupt to end here, but I am ending here because I want to sleep ^^v Oyasuminasai~

Labels: Kamenashi Kazuya, KAT-TUN, Thoughts